My search was motivated solely by curiosity and a dissatisfaction with the religious paradigm I had been indoctrinated with, and later, with the scientific paradigm I had been indoctrinated with. I did not know that my search for understanding had anything to do with spirituality, per se, until I started reading about Eastern religions. Even then, the search felt more like a search for psychological and scientific understanding than anything spiritual. It never felt spiritual until I had an initial cosmic consciousness experience. That experience changed me from what I imagined was a scientist to what I imagined was a mystic. Today, I know that what I am is beyond imagining. Anything that I am imagined to be is not what I am, but is included in what I am.
