...(in the hope of getting some peace of mind) but the curiosity thang was the big deal from the get go, and it is what propelled all the questioning from beginning to end. I never suffered the kind of despair Tolle writes about, and I never had a "pain body." I was kind of a free-spirited scientist/builder/artist/adventurer doing my own thing until business-related stress and compulsive thinking took all my fun away. LOL. At that time I don't remember anti-depressants being available, so meditation was an experimental effort to get a little peace. Within two weeks or so I saw that meditation was a different way of interacting with the world than thinking, and that's when I turned away from thought and started toward the cliff. Five months later I plunged over the edge. Man, that was a real shock! Ha ha.
